enchanting

love sonnet xvii

2006-11-04T08:03:00.000-08:00

by pablo neruda

i do not love you as if you were a salt rose, or topaz
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
i love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
i love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
i love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
i love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so i love you because i know no other way
than this: where i does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as i fall asleep

1 litre of tears

2006-11-03T18:20:00.000-08:00

the other side of suffering

everyone feels pain
but surely, after suffering satisfaction will surface
even with sports, studying and other ordeals
with life, its like that for everyone
if we can beat the pain, on the other side
a rainbow of hapiness awaits us
that will definitley becomes a tresure
lets believe in that

--a diary of tears--

only human

2006-11-02T09:13:00.000-08:00

im learning some japanese right now so go figure

作詞: 小山内舞作曲: 松尾潔・田中直
哀しみの向こう岸に微笑みがあるというよ
哀しみの向こう岸に微笑みがあるというよたどり着くその先には何が僕らを待ってる?
逃げるためじゃなく　夢追うために旅に出たはずさ　遠い夏のあの日
明日さえ見えたなら　ため息もないけど流れに逆らう舟のように今は　前へ　進め
苦しみの尽きた場所に幸せが待つというよ僕はまだ探している季節はずれの向日葵
こぶし握りしめ　朝日を待てば赤い爪あとに　涙　キラリ　落ちる
孤独にも慣れたなら月明かり頼りに羽根なき翼で飛び立とうもっと　前へ　進め雨雲が切れたなら濡れた道　かがやく闇だけが教えてくれる強い　強い　光強く　前へ　進め

no excuses...

2006-10-25T02:07:00.000-07:00

im me no excuses...
but sometimes i want people to know.
that there's something more, inside of me.
im not only a cheerful girl.
sometimes, im not smiles and fun.
sometimes.
im surrounded by people and i still feel alone.
incomplete.
i know there's more of me.
i fall, i need help.
but when i look around no one's there.
no one's listening...
and if i shout
will the listen? will they listen?
if i tell her the truth
will she understand?
or will she stand there disappointed.
i just ask,
if im wrong.. understand.
don't say anything, don't make me explain
cause i can't, i just can't
it happens.
no excuses.

no need to see
no need to speak
no need to hear

listen. inside.

in a second

2006-10-23T19:46:00.000-07:00

this right now... i wanna feel...

Don't know where you are
Wish I just could be near you
I would sail oceans To get a glimpse of how you feel
You're all the things I'm looking For
everything and so much more
What I thinkYou are just perfect
Could it be That I am worth it
Is this thing an open door Walk right through to something more
You and me
My life would change in a second
In a second
Don't know how you feel
You seem to keep it to yourself
Would you climb mountians To show me this is something real
You're all the things I'm looking For everything and so much more
What I think You are just perfect
Could it be That I am worth it
Is this thing an open door
Walk right through to something more
You and me
My life would change in a second
In a second
Could it be You and me
You and me
Do I seeClearly
What I think
You are just perfect
Could it be That I am worth it
Is this thing an open door
Walk right through to something more
What I think You are just perfect
Could it beThat I am worth it
Is this thing an open door
Walk right through to something moreYou and me
My life would change in a second
In a second

a week

2006-10-13T19:54:00.000-07:00

a lot has happen...argh... my dog (mark) died may he rest in peace.. i love him....

anyway. im feeling a little up today. i dont know. i guess i've been through a lot this week and now im just glad its all over. im glad cause i survive it. even though i know monday will still come a blur i can say i can see it a lot clearer. im thankful to my friends who taught me the saying one for all, all for one.im glad we live up to it. i may be a bit nervous because of my grades this sem. but i dont know. iguess someone is comforting me, reassuring me that what ever the outcome is they will still love me. sometimes we fail. sometimes we suceed. that's life

cant argue with that.

it not that i accept that im a loser or a failure. but sometimes we need this things to happen to see the bigger picture. to be prepare for the next step. to be better. to be THE BEST.

after all this is what we are made to be to be the best.

i looove CHANDLER

2006-10-09T05:19:00.000-07:00

i looove CHANDLER. no not matthew perry but chandler. if anyone doesn't know who chandler is he's one of the members of(emmy award winning show) friends. haha im totally hooked on this show because for the past months ive been watching them. thanks to the dvd kuya johann and james left for me. anyway back to chandler. he's so funny and some-what hot in that no-so-obvious was haha.. i love his sarcastic jokes and the way he loves monica near the end.

the guy pala in the left is NOT chandler. he's my other papa haha lee wan i love him in his drama's or films whatever. he's such a great actor like his sister... haha enough blog entries with guys.

excuse me for this post haha

FINISH.

manila

2006-10-07T23:27:00.000-07:00

right now im listening to the song "manila" by amber.. its a new version.. i like it..

it makes me remember how much i love my country... that even if i plan to go abroad and live there.. i will still miss manila and everything in it..

it makes me sad cause Philippines is such a beautiful country it has everything...except DISCIPLINE well the people here dont have much have of it.. dont get me wrong we filipino's are very much good people but its not enough we should have enough RESPECT to our country.. im not perfect but i love the philippines so much that it hurts to see people going abroad.. eventually i will too but is it the END. we have so much to offer. that's it...

predictable

2006-10-07T04:27:00.000-07:00

ackk.. i hate this.. now im feeling my life is totally predictable and i dont want it to be. its hard doing the same things everyday.. nothing changes.. its like i wake up in the morning know what i'll be doing.. i hate it.

no im not bored. i just need something new in my life. i know what i want, i know how to get it, i know were and when i'll get it but. where's the drama? where's the part that i dont know something's missing.. i dont know what or who but something is missing. some excitement?

i have no problem in my life now but is it enough? right now i dont know what i want. do i want to go to the states after my 2nd yr or do i just finish my studies here? whatever i choose i know i wont regret it cause its my decision. but right now i feel so deprived of everything. i want everybody to just lay-off. just mind their own bussiness. if i need help i will ask for it.

so that's it. that's what i want just be on my own.

2006-10-05T04:25:00.000-07:00

can you believe what i look like i found this site (thanks to angel from candymag.com) that has pictures with your look a like celebrities haha its so much fun check it out:

2006-10-03T17:12:00.000-07:00

first post nothing official blog still under construction